Adoption Connections....the place to be!!!

I just wanted to share with all of you, the most awesome online adoption site...Adoption Connections.....Shelley the owner is such a great person, very supportive! I am so happy that we have been able to register with her and are feeling really positive about it!

Here is the link to our profile page on this registry...Shelley did such a great job putting it together and her hints on the pictures that we should use were SO right on!!! We are thrilled with it!

Take a peek...

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Also...I have had a few fellow bloggers asking me random questions lately....some about hair, adoption, what kind of mascara I use.....everything and anything.....so I thought I would open things up a bit......if you have a question for me ask away and I will do a post next week answering all your questions!!!

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The first time I cut my husband's hair...I thought I was going to hyperventilate.. .I broke out into the most disgusting sweat.....I had never ever in my at that time 14 years of cutting hair...seen a head of hair so hard to cut.....and of course I knew him fairly well by this time and I could tell that this guy wanted to have nice hair...he was a bit particular about his locks..........
I had also heard about his long time stylist, who he had been seeing for many years...and she did a good job as far as I could see....and boy at that moment in between snips I had the utmost respect for this women.......geez this was tough....

It is always a big joke in the salon when someone asks me..."do you cut you husbands hair"..and I of course have to go into the long winded "tale of Terry's tresses"....I embellish saying how awful it is, how stressful....and to make matters worse by the time T gets to have a haircut I am exhausted from usually a very busy Saturday.....so lets be honest I am not at my best.....there have been many times that we have got home and I have looked at him and cringed...yikes....get the kitchen shears out lets trim that up.....lol

I have actually truly considered going to T's old stylist and buying him a lifetime supply of gift certificates....whew let her deal with this......but that wouldn't really do much for my reputation now would it!!!

Well T you will be happy to know that I met your match today............WOW....this man not only had a very challenging head of hair but he was really into "fashion" as he called it.......he was asking me the strangest questions about various things....and he was SO picky about his cut........I just couldn't help from giggling inside......thinking wow buddy, I can't believe this but you have just taken over a longstanding rein here.........you are now officially my toughest male client.....T has held this position for some time now......I'm not sure how he will feel about this......he has been the source of such good material for years...always getting tons of laughs and of course sympathy from the ladies because his hairstylist wife makes him drive 30 mins to get his haircut....in my defence you wouldn't believe how important a hydraulic chair is when you are cutting T's hair!!

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the life of a blogger!!!

I have been writing this blog now for about a year and a half.....what an interesting ride.....it has had its high points and of course its low points.....


I have had moments that I have thought I'm not doing this anymore.....after a negative comment or something that I have shared has hurt someone else.....but in the end I say to myself..."no one has to read this"...this is my personal space and I really can write whatever I want! In my line of work you have to be UP all the time....no one wants to come in and have me in a sad/bad mood.....I need to support them through whatever they are going through at the time.....quite honestly lots of times at the end of my day...my world looks pretty damn good after listening to my clients all day!!! :)


I have also had my "going private" moments too....actually did that for a week or so...again after insecurities got the best of me and I just couldn't take the negative stuff!


I do still find it funny that the people who comment and vocally support me are most of the time, not all I am totally generalizing here(actually today I received a really nice comment from someone that I have known for literally years, which was so nice)...but a lot of the people are people that I have never met in the "real world".......the people that I have met on this blog have literally gotten me through the darkest deepest moments.....I read fellow bloggers posts and it is almost like I wrote them myself.....I can see their pain and relate to their struggles and celebrate with them in their victories...their high moments!!!



It really feels like I have a whole new network of people that support me.....and I do think, I guess I don't know this for sure but I do think that the readers that don't comment and don't say anything to me personally are there keeping me up too, sending out positive prayers for us...

I am sure that sometimes the things I am feeling and writing people don't agree with.....that is something I have learned on this journey...not everyone is going to agree with what we decided.....my closest family and friends may not agree with the path we have chosen....I do feel that before our life took this turn I was naive enough to think that everyone would just agree with us...see it our way.....I have grown to see that no, that is not the way it is......thankfully most people in my life even though they may not agree 100% us...still support....for that I am truly grateful!!!



I guess today I am just reflecting on my blogging journey.....how it has brought people back into my life and it has opened up a whole new support system......so it is a thankyou to all you have given us hope, got me through the tough stuff....and to the people that don't agree or read a post and feel negativity towards it remember.....you just never ever know what you would do until you are sitting in the exact same seat as someone else.....so please be kind....open your mind to new thoughts and ideas....and if I or any other blog is bringing you down...stop reading it and move on to something that will help you on your particular path......



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blogging the highs and the lows........

Sometimes things just happen for a reason...you "meet" that right person and things just seem to take off....I can't believe the highs and the lows that this blog has brought to my life! A few days ago I received a comment on my blog, it is always so exciting when I receive a comment from someone new...it always amazes me that anyone even wants to read my ramblings...and then to take the time to comment...unreal....

Anyways, this comment was from a women that actually owns an online adoption site, it was so bizarre because "T" and I had just been chatting about this site and thinking that we should register with them.........so you can imagine my surprise when I discovered that this new comment was indeed from the women that owns this agency...

Now to be honest I really don't necessarily get into all this "fate" stuff...but this was a bit weird......so we threw caution to the wind and decided to register....and we couldn't be happier.........this girl is so awesome....in just a few days I feel like I actually know her really well...so weird, but she is so kind and helpful.....I am so happy to have had this opportunity to register with her, and most importantly........I feel hopeful again I have a really positive feeling about this.........whatever it is to bring......I feel so good about this decision!!!!!

Thanks "S" for keeping me positive!!!
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my Mom and Dad are away for a couple weeks....I guess I just needed a to "hear" her voice tonight...this is a comment she left me a few blogs ago....I'm not sure that it really sunk in when she posted it...but for some reason I came across it tonight....exactly what I needed!


"...give thanks in all circumstances...the highest level of thankfulness we can give is believing and having faith in knowing that God works through all circumstances for ultimate good...even though it is so hard for us to see and understand."

once again, even miles away she knows the perfect thing to say!!

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we need to cheer up around here.......:)

So we need to cheer this blog up a bit......here are some pics from my recent Christmas Extravaganza.....be prepared it kind of looks like a dollar store has thrown up in my living room....lol

It's beginning to look alot like Christmas.......

the plan.....

I wonder sometimes what life will bring...what is our future? I have always been a planner....I plan...I plan very very well!! I like to be scheduled, it is the nature of my business..you make an appt and you arrive on time....everything is minute by minute...yes I know that sounds super annoying to some of you...but that is how I roll......I plan, I make lists and then make another list just to be sure.......from a very young age I started to plan out my future..some things have gone to "plan...but I have learned that lots of times plans change...often for the better!!


So when I start thinking about our future....I can't help myself from planning, or at least thinking about a plan.....our future plan!

This is when things get very very confusing for me! I feel like we had a plan and then that changed, we have embraced that change we have actually grown to love this new plan....the plan to grow our family through adoption...the plan of welcoming a child and potentially, hopefully their birthfamily to be a part of our lives....yes not even close to the plan that I thought of as a young twentysomething but this has become my dream now.....this is what our future looks like in my mind.



As I sit here 14 months into our wait, I get frustrated, confused wondering if I should be planning something else, have a backup plan so I can be prepared for what might be...yes I am still trying so hard to stay positive and believe that this is all going to work out. I just can't help myself though, from trying to wrap my head around the fact that it just might not.....I know that sounds so negative and this won't make sense to many of you...but I need to prepare myself for this......I need to know that somehow, someway I am going to be okay if this doesn't work to "plan"......
I seem to be the type of person that can deal with anything if I am prepared....so I have started to think about this.....asking myself all of the dreaded questions....will we be okay....will we find comfort if there are no children to fill our lives....I know that the most important thing for me is to be able to spend the rest of my days with my husband...if I can't have that then nothing would be worth it......so I continue to pray that somehow... I will gain the strength to deal with whatever plan takes place.......

just some Thursday ramblings...this just seems to be where I am at right now....confused, trying to stay positive......wondering what our future looks like......
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moms....

Sometimes, Mom's just always know the right things to say and do!

Yesterday my Mom came in to get her hair done before her and my Dad leave on a much deserved 2 week stint in the sunny south.....I am sure she was looking forward to a nice relaxing couple of hours at the salon....and well I am afraid she left with much more than she bargained for!!!

Yes I had a mini breakdown mid foil application.........***sigh***.....I'm not sure what hit me, I'm sure it was the comfort of my Mother's understanding voice but she got it all.....I just let it all out....all my fears and hopes and sadness....everything....
As always she calmed me down and comforted me and made me see things sensibly! She just always knows how to put things into perspective....makes me see things clearly!!!

I know my parents feel our pain, they don't pretend to totally get it because they have not been through this but I think as parents when your kids hurt you hurt....so my poor Mom is loosing just as much sleep over this as I.....she is praying for our miracle probably even more then we are!!
This morning I woke up to an email from my Mom after she had been awake for hours through the night....this email was the most amazing, uplifting....special email.....it has made me think that this just might be possible again...lifted my spirits....taken me from the depths of the valley to the top of the hill again.....

Thanks MOM
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hills and valleys!

So I seem to be just hanging on by a thread recently.....I am trying so hard to stay upbeat for everyone and positive....happy about Christmas coming, happy about everyone elses news and excitement.....but honestly I am drowning here....seriously just barely getting by!

When we talk about hills and valleys... shit here we are again in a valley....damn it all!!! I hate being here.....I hate waking up every morning with hope and anticipation that just maybe the phone will ring or we will get that email.......only to hit 10pm and head to bed with tears trickling down my face.....trying to not let anyone know.....

I am making myself crazy with guilt....guilt over the fact that it is my Dads 60th coming up and he doesn't have grandchildren yet.....guilt over the fact that I know friends get that look when they are going to talk about their children and they are not sure if they should or not....of course I feel that they should but in the end it always hurts to hear all the little details that I am missing.....feeling guilty and hoping that my brother and his girlfriend don't feel that they should halt any of their own plans due to all of this with us....(I don't even know where that one is coming from....it is so stupid.....my brother is going to think I am crazy when he reads this)......

Sometimes all of this is just too much....I am caught in a whirlwind of thoughts all the time...not sleeping...all of this consuming me, until thank goodness I go to work and can concentrate on big problems like ladies walking around with mullets.....lol

We met with our local CAS yesterday and that has just taken this to a whole new level....I am just not sure what we can handle.....one minute I feel so selfish for thinking or more importantly writing that....and then the next I get angry that we even have to think about this.....why can't this just be easier.....

People have been asking me why I haven't blogged in a bit...well to be honest, I have revisited this post so many times today, mostly because I can hardly imagine opening myself up this much....to anyone...I don't want people's pity....I already know every cliche....this is just a valley.....thank GOODNESS I know that a hill is always just around the corner......

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THE MULLET.......

The MULLET????



What is the first thing you think of when you see that word.....what picture comes to your mind! I will never understand the fascination with the mullet.....and why some women STILL have it....now don't get me wrong there is a very "envogue" version that was so popular last season.....and even a trend this season that could be described as "mulletish!!! But quite frankly we do not have many sporting the trendy version here in this smalltown.....if there is any mullets it is the old fashioned....hideous kind!!! You know it, the infamous mullet also known as HOCKEY HAIR!!



Yesterday I had a new client booked in with me....which is always exciting something fresh and new....I even still get a few butterflies in my stomach if anticipation.....hmmm wondering what this person will be like....nice, laidback, snobby....I get them all...so this women walked in and from the back of the salon I could see her...........now the first thing that caught my eye was her haircolor some sort of lackluster shade of auburn....definitely an at home job, definitely not a good color for her....but hey that is why she is here right....I will get her out of that color in no time.....as I started towards the front of the salon I was getting a better look at what I was getting to work on..........oh my.....I could see that she had the bottom half of her hair tied back....however the top of her hair was SHORT almost spikey.....WTH????



WOW I thought how are we going to let this women down gently.....telling her that she looked like a walking hair tragedy.....well honestly is always my best policy so here we go.........I thought to myself well maybe she just had a REALLY REALLY bad last haircut and that is why she is here......she had to wait 6 weeks for this appt so she really wanted to wait and see me.....okay that must be it!!



So we get seated for our consultation....and I start off by telling her how much I like her shirt and how nice it is to meet her and then we get into the nitty gritty...so_____ what are we going to do today......and to my surprise she replied saying as she was pulling out her "pony".....just a trim please....I have finally got this to a length that I can pull it back..........OH wow....okay I have my work cut out for me here....because this head is not leaving this building with my name on it cut in any shape that it is now...yikes!!!

This women needs to get educated.....and she is so attractive, tall slim very young looking.....so I figure I will start with that.......I said sure I can do that but you are so attractive I almost feel like all of this length is pulling you down......and do you like this top area so short.....???? So after chatting with her for a bit she sort of opened up and realized that all the short pieces where really causing her trouble when she styled it.....ahhhhh thank goodness......so we gave her a totally new look...........she looked so awesome....and is coming back to get that terrible color fixed....ahhh...



Her last comment to me was.........."thank-you for being so honest, most people just do it and never give my any advice......so did I have a mullet"....well I could not lie...."yes yes, you did one of the best I have seen in years........and to be honest no one leaves here with a mullet"....we all laughed and she booked for a color and cut is six weeks!!

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HO hum.........

hmmm....I just don't seem to have much to say right now.....

here are a few quick updates....

-"T" is away.....business in Vegas...
- I am working a TON....blah
- new stylist starts next week parttime
- meet with CAS on Monday to begin the registration process.... see where that might take us
- I'm getting a new vehicle.....just picked out a Toyota Venza...
- GiRLs weekend on Sat with some great girls....we have been friends since elementary school
- still have not heard anything from our BM email
- it's T's bday on Thurs.....hmm any ideas for a fun present.....geesh he should be the one giving presents seeing he is having fun is Vegas.....lol
- had a fun dinner with some girlfriends on Sunday.....we have discovered an awesome Thai takeout place in the city.....and they deliver.....nice!

I am totally getting into planning our Christmas Party....love it...however it costs too much money....it doesn't pay to be creative and have new ideas all the time.....lucky I'm working a ton or I would be out spending all the time!!
has anyone ever been to a party that had a popcorn bar???????? let me know what you thought of it.....this is my new brainstorm, the candy bar is soooo two years ago....lol...lol...can't wait!!!

Well that is it for now.......rather boring, nothing new......just keeping keepin' on.....:)
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