Wish it...Dream it...DO IT!!!!

My weekend has been filled with a lot of soul searching.....I have been in a funk, which is just not like me.....I have stayed stagnant, become complacent ...waiting....waiting....WAITING...man I am starting to just hate that word....

I do not wait around.........I take action....all my life I have been the type of person to move on...visualize a goal and do it.....whether it is my job, my personal life..anything. Now in saying that I have made some pretty hefty mistakes...like that little thing I like to call a divorce...yeah that plan of action was maybe not the best....but that is the thing you can always fix things...

I always have been a person with dreams........now when I say dreams I might surprise some of you...my dreams really are not that grand.......I don't dream about having a million dollar home or a really crazy fancy car.......I have dreams about making a difference, leaving a legacy...I really want to make a difference in peoples lives.....so how will I go about doing this.....I have a quote on a wall in my salon....something my Dad would always say in his own way...wish it...dream it...DO IT...I started to think about it this weekend...why have I not been doing that??? That is what we do....and I had stopped.....crazy....???

I am blessed to be in the business that I am......I get to touch peoples lives everyday....my art, I love.....and have been fairly successful to this point but this is not enough for me...I must keep going......in the past year I have thought that I would wait...put my dreams, my "plan" on hold for a bit until I know what is going to happen in our life......well I have finally realized that that is just not going to work for me! I don't think waiting is what I should be doing........it is just not healthy for the type of person I am. Holding out is making me sad and depressed and anxious which in turn makes me not effective at my job, with my clients and my staff....it ends up being a bad situation all around!!!

So I am moving on....the next part of my dream plan is in effect........I have many goals set for myself and my business and our life....I am so blessed that my husband is on board always to support me and of course my family always supports us too. Which I must say is why I feel confident enough to move ahead with these dreams..........having all of their support has always been my last push to move ahead.....

The first part of my plan is going to take a bit of education on my part, so in April "T" and I will be heading away to take a Salon Business Management course.........as I have said before my passion is my art....I am a hairstylist, I love to work with my hands and my eyes and my heart....the management part of my business is very challenging for me.....and I have not been doing it very well.....so I need to get better at it...so that is what I will do......because for the rest of my plan to happen I need to be very effective at that part of the "job"! I want to feed off of others that have already taken the road I am about to take!!!

I feel a new spring in my step....a renewed passion again.........of course I don't want anyone to get the wrong idea here.....this adoption is still the most important thing to both "T" and I...but the reality of this situation is, it may not happen for months and months....and quite honestly if I stay the way I am for that length of time no BM would ever pick us....because I would be officially spending time in the "loony bin"....I just can't do this anymore....it is consuming me.....I don't like this person I have become, so I have to make a change.....working towards our dreams.......and hopefully right in the middle of all that work....the most exciting dream will happen and it won't even feel like we have been waiting at all!!!! :)

so in the words of my Dad....WISH IT....DREAM IT.....DO IT!!!
m :)