Sunday, May 1, 2011

we need a miracle.....

I don't even know where to start with this post....our lives have been forever is funny really....I thought that on March 4th life could not ever get any worse....we had to kiss Brynley goodbye forever....our life felt like it was turned upside down in a matter of one month...we questioned could this happen again...we thought we did everything to protect ourselves....however we did learn...from every trial comes a lesson.....we were just starting to feel normal again....just starting to sleep through the night, and boom....disaster strikes!

This is so hard to type, I guess sometimes I think if I don't write it, or I don't call my girlfriends and talk about it maybe just maybe it isn't really know in that first moment when you wake up in the lasts about 5 kind of don't know where you are, who you are or who the heck is sleeping beside you....that moment of complete innocence....that is my favorite time of day now....because in that moment, this nightmare is not is perfect, just exactly how I want it! isn't like that, not one of us is exempt from trials and difficult moments....and it is our turn....sadly this is our year!

My Dad, probably my most favorite person in the whole wide world, has been diagnosed with Lung Cancer....we have know that he has had some issues for about 2 months now, however 2 weeks ago the diagnosis become mush more serious than any of us ever imagined....I can't even explain how sad I am, how scared...for all of us....I try everyday to keep positive and take each day as they come....being thankful for each one of them.....but sometimes in my dark, alone moments it just becomes to much to bear....I just want things to go back to normal...those days that I just assumed my Dad would be here driving us all crazy for years and years to come.....I desperately want those days back.......but they won't be back, we are now a family living with and fighting cancer with every bone in our body.......I will not ever stop trying to find a cure for this dreadful disease....that robes families, coworkers, friends, and for me most of all Dads and Daughters precious years together.....

Please pray with me and my family for our miracle...fight with us to have many more years with my DAD!