Friday, January 22, 2010

I wonder?

I wonder, I wonder if anyone thinks before they speak these days??? No really I know that sometimes things slip out and you immediately know....opps shouldn't have said that and try to back pedal like crazy...shit happens......but I really wonder if people ever think about how another person will feel after they bring up a certain subject or chat about a particular thing.........I know that my parents were forever saying "Michelle think before you speak"....that was huge in our house...it came a close second to " Michelle sit up straight put your shoulders back"....lol...serioulsy though I was taught at a very young age to really think before I said something.....now I will admit that sometimes my tongue gets the best of me and I say something that I maybe shouldn't have......but really didn't anyone else hear this growing up....doesn't anyone think about how they can really hurt someone with their words??????

I promised myself on Jan 1st that this blog was no longer going to be about Michelle and Terry's sad days........I wasn't going to look back on this and have to read about all the sadness all the time...I want to look back at this blog and be proud of me........whatever ends up happening I want to see that I handled this part of my life with grace and courage......I am going to try to be positive and be thankful and have faith.......
So because of that, I am not going to tell you what was said to me today that hurt me to the core......I am not going to think about it for one more minute...I am going to pray for this person and hope that someday she will know that hurting someone else is not going to help her not one bit....... thankfully from the help of my parents, family and husband's support over the years, even when someone tries to knock me down, I can put things into perspective and can see that this person right along with me is hurting and is sad....so now even after this I will now try to help her.......

Sunday, January 17, 2010

help us help haiti!!!

Saturday was an amazing day at work....truly amazing!

Thursday night was the first night that I had sat down and watched some o the CNN coverage on Haiti......I was distraught......I just couldn't believe what I was seeing. My heart was breaking. These people and children....it was just devastating what was happening. I was thinking to myself here I am listening to a woman's cry for help as she lay squashed between the ground and a huge boulder of concrete as my husband and I were discussing our weekend activities.....sick it was just sick......I had to do something!!!

As I sat and thought about it, I of course thought well tomorrow I will get online and make a donation.........but for some reason as I laid in bed that night...a small donation just didn't seem like enough........so I tossed and turned with visions of all the small children I had seen on the screen that night when it finally came to me.........I was going to do something at work...........I decided I was going to donate my sales from Sat to relief efforts in Haiti!!!

I asked T what he thought of the idea first thing and of course he was on board thinking of different things I could do to get more people involved........so it was decided.....I called our local radio station and they did a short interview...I sent out emails and facebook announcements....Sat morning I made posters, got balloons and timbits...........and we were off!!!

What can I say........the clients at the salon are AMAZING AWESOME...so GENEROUS.......ahhh it was so great.......everyone chipped in, people were coming in off the street buying products, getting their hair trimmed....all because the sales were going to be donated.....it was just so great to watch and be a part of.....the best part was, we were able to raise a little over $1500 to give to Haitian Relief!!!

If we can help even a few people.....by giving them the simplest things....like water, shelter ever as simple as bandages.......that would be so great.........

m :)

Monday, January 11, 2010

This is what my 2010 is going to look like!!!

after a year filled with ups and downs...challenges and accomplishments....I have learned more about myself....I have finally realized that that is what this life is all about....learning and growing, becoming a better person everyday!

this year, I am going to try to work on the things that I have learned.....

This year I am going to....

Slow down. Think less, Have fun. Breathe. Hug. Sing. Dance. Laugh. Smile. Listen. Call. Write. Play. Provide. Just Be. Kiss. Visit. Walk. Let Go. Pray. Learn. Read. Snuggle. Accept. Have FAITH. Give. Believe. Offer. and just LIVE. (thanks yaya for this inspiration)

What is your 2010 going to look like?

Thursday, January 7, 2010

knowing your limits....

Yesterday we received an email from our agency with the subject line...."potential scenario"....well you can imagine the feeling in my heart, it leapt....with excitement and fear and anxiety, what will this be!

As I opened the email and read the black type, I was cautiously excited....surely not really taking in the text.....I read it and reread and started to digest it......some items about this women seemed a bit scary but truthfully I was very oblivious to what these words even meant. I quickly called T and he looked the the email over........knowing he would be a much better judge much more cautious, I waited for his response.......was this something that we could entertain.

We collectively decided right then that we would respond by saying we were interested but needed a lot more information......we sat and discussed all night, me with my laptop in my hands searching out every bit of information......still at 11pm there was no response so I headed to bed....with many different thoughts rolling around in my head.
Very early morning I awoke and searched out my blackberry and saw that ever so famous red blinking light.....again my stomach did a flip flop with anticipation...........and it was another email...a much more detailed email about all the different scenarios that this little life would be facing upon entering the world........my heart was saying wow could we handle this, would it be too much.....but naively I still did not anticipate the extent of all the issues that were staring right at me.........

As the sun came up I waited for T to stir so I could chat with him about this most recent email, again realizing that he would be a much better judge........we decided our best bet was to call on some professionals...motherrisk...my aunt who is a nurse practitioner and of course our adoption practitioner.......after a very long grueling day of phone calls, emails and reading tons of information........T and I decided to pull ourselves from this "pool" of couples that would be profiled in the next few days......

At the beginning of this 2 day journey I felt some anger thinking how could you do this to your baby, this poor little being....that's life now is in such jeopardy.....but now I just feel such sadness for those two people, this birth mother that is so very troubled and this little person that will enter this world in the next few weeks...no one knowing what the outcome might be.....

I pray that our agency can find a couple that has the strength and courage to take these two people into their care.....I hope they get the chance to love this baby and help it through its inevitable struggles throughout the coming years........I pray this women can get some help, some love and strength to pull herself out of the trenches if that is what she desires......

I will think of these two often I am sure.......they have tugged at my heart strings....

m:)

Monday, January 4, 2010

jewels........

okay so you must have known, it wouldn't be long until I had another obsession........another craft to fill my time...the stampin and scrappin is so yesterday....for now that is..I really think that is something I will do a ton of if we have a little one in our lives, but for now I need to put it to rest..you know you can only scrap T and I so often......:)

For the last little bit I have been thinking about something new to get into......I need to keep my hands and mind busy when they are not at work.......not an easy task for me.......I know most would say....geez take a break have a nap watch some TV, but I NEED something to do with my hands at all times it seems.........and lately that has been surfing..........and not the waves......the internet and really all if does is depress me.......so goodbye laptop........HELLO BEADS, and stones and sterling silver!!

That's right thanks to a friend who I was out with on New Years Eve...I have started to make some jewellery....and I love it....so fun and there are so many pretty things to buy...yes my favorite part of every craft....the shopping........

So here is a peek at my first creations.......and I am making more as I type......:)






m:)

Saturday, January 2, 2010

twenty ten...


twenty ten.......well here we go!


I actually like the sound of that, it has a certain ring to it doesn't it............I am excited to see what this year has in store for all of us!



Let's get this year started!!!



m:)

Friday, January 1, 2010

ThE BesT aND ThE WorST oF 2009.....

So here we are some highlights and maybe even some "lowlights" from 2009....for some reason my photo ops where a bit lacking this year....hmmm maybe new years resolution #1 take more pics.....

#1.....the cutest set of Canada Day twins...


#2 the best Valentines Day photo op EvER.......



#3.....the most hideous close up....yikes........



#4...adoption profile photo ops...thanks Lynne.......



#5.....best looking Mom........Christmas 2009......

#6 cute couple on the best weekend of the summer....."MooRE WeeKeNd at THe CottAge LabOUr DaY 2009



#7 Sushi Night with Dad....very very humorous to watch.....


#8 best place to have a nap.....



#9 worst facial expression has to go to "T" this year....wow


#10 absolutely the cutest baby you have ever seen........





#11 funniest laugh........love their spirit....."Family Day 2009"

#12 best way to get through the adoption blues......RenOVate........Cottage Reno Bayfield ONT!



#13 the best really really bored, sick and tired look......
#14 pretty good looking mother and son......
Well there you have it 2009 summed up in 14 pics.......like I said I have missed some things, I will try harder next year!!
Here's to 2009 it's been a good year.....hello 2010 can't wait to see what you have in store for us!!!
m:)