Well here we are again....another Christmas Season another year coming to an end. I wish that I could say that I was excited for this Christmas....I wish I had my old Christmas spirit, the girl that had her decorations up the day after Remembrance Day...the girl that planned and organized so many holiday functions it made T's head spin....the girl that jumped out of bed on Christmas morning anticipating the wonderful day filled with spirit ahead.......I'm afraid this past year has taken all the Christmas Spirit that I did have left right out of me!
I said to T last night that I feel like I am on my hands and knees slowly inching my way to the 2010 finish line...not quite sure if have the energy to get there....I know slowly but surely I will...with the token smile on my face.......but inside I am feeling very broken....very tired....and very very ready for this year to be over. All of you know about our failed match this summer...what you don't know is all the other small rough patches that have occurred this year...things that I won't discuss on this blog because they affect other people but non the less these things have all contributed to a very very hard past 6 months....and I am exhausted!
I have no idea what next year will bring.....I won't say "2011 is our year, I can feel it" and I truly hope no one says that to us, because quite honestly...you said that last year and the year before that.....yes this has been a rough patch as my Dad said to me a few short months ago....yes rough it has been....thankfully I can still see the positives...all the wonderful exciting things that have happened for us this year and for all of those things and people in my life I am truly truly thankful.....this is what will get me through this Season.....knowing that no matter what.....I have many things to smile about!