"Good things come to those who wait"....."never give up hope"...."all things happen for a reason"......."better things ahead", these are just a sampling of some of my favorite cliches.....irritating to hear I know, but thankfully I have experienced enough in my life to know that they are all true....."this too shall pass"....
This is a blog I hoped I would never have to write. As I am typing my heart is sad and my head is very disappointed. As you can tell by now our matched has not worked out. "N" has decided to parent her baby. Yes we are very sad but as I have always said we can absolutely understand why. This baby will have just as much love in her home as it would in ours... for that we find comfort.
What has disappointed us is the fact that someone we had come to trust has not even informed us that she has given birth yet. For some reason unknown to us "N" it seems has fallen off the face of the earth, or so she would like us to believe.......thankfully our SW has some connections that were kind enough to inform us that "N" had her baby late Sat night and went home on Sunday....she told the hospital that she had considered adoption early on, but changed her mind a few months ago....which is all very interesting because it was a few months ago that she contacted us. We are not angry, we are not mad.... we are just confused as to why in this day and age with all the technology in this world...email, answering machines....social workers at your doorstep why you couldn't just tell us earlier and not let us think something so positively for so long.
We have to believe that she knew no other way to handle it, she felt this was all she could do. I pray that she as well as "T" and I can find peace with that.
There really isn't much more to say.....we will now regroup, try and find the lessons in all of this and move on. I do know for sure that in the end it will all make sense.