Sunday, October 2, 2011

The Club!

I can't even describe how different everything feels once you are part of the "club". Now maybe some of you are confused right now...what club is this she is speaking of....is it some sort of sorority, an art club...oh maybe she means a book club....nope not any of these...I am speaking of the not so official MOMMY CLUB....it may not be official but it is a hard club to crack for some of us...a much anticipated belonging....a membership that is very long sought after.......and once you feel like you are in, you feel like finally the waiting is over...

I know this all sounds very dramatic, but I have to tell you this is exactly how it feels...to finally feel like you are part of the biggest club....the group with the most insane number of members...the MOMMY CLUB.....

For years I and countless others have sat in the wings....listening, watching, longing to be a part...we sit quietly listening to everyone talk about diapers, feedings...and sleepless nights....and even though sometimes you think WHY would anyone want this it sounds exhausting...that is just what you tell yourself for emotional protection....you still badly want to be part of that club!!

Well I finally officially feel like a group member.....I feel like I can join in on all the conversations going on at all the parties, at the mall...down the street.....It is so exciting...however

Yes there is a however........what I have noticed is that there are other women in the club that have suffered the sorrow of not being able to join the club quiet as fast as they had hoped....the heartbreaking times when nothing seemed to work....times when all hope had diminished...the dark times before the Club seemed even a remote possibility...actually the club was one of the hardest things to take in those dark times......sometimes once you are in the club you forget...you forget the sadness or block it so you don't have to live it again...and just because our prayers have been answered our dreams full filled, doesn't mean there are not still women out there...in our circle, in pain....living their darkest days.....

This is what I am trying very hard to remember right now........just because I feel that my prayers have been answered and D is here with us and life almost seems to good to be true....I remember all the women who want to join the club more than anything else and can't at this moment...it is people like me, the newest additions to the mommy club that can cause them the most pain, the feeling like something is hitting them in the gut when they hear our squeals of delight over the right colour of pooh, or getting 4 hrs of straight sleep.........I am promising to think of them before I talk to much or to long about the things that could cause them more heart-ache.

Hopefully most Mommy club members think about this as well.....I think maybe the club needs a list of do's and don'ts...this would be at the top of my list....
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1 comment:

Jen As Herself said...

It's so nice to hear you happy, but at the same time thoughtful of those who are not there. Often people just get so swept up in the joy of the moment in having a dream come true that they forget. Good on you!