Most people don't know this about me, but I spend most of my conscious time here on earth being nervous! Yes NERVOUS....butterflies in my stomach...sweaty palms nervous...it can be about various things....my clients new haircut, having to meet someone new, results of my Dads monthly scans, even crazy stupid things like having to return a phone call to a neighbour I don't know that well, having a meeting at the bank...just nervous...and yep, you guessed it right now I am nervous!
The crazy thing about this is hardly anyone knows this about me, actually I think people see me as very confident, put together person.........HA...not so not so at all!!
So here is the deal....tomorrow at 11:30 D and I are headed to our first Mommy/Baby get together...and I am so nervous about it. It is so ridiculous!! I know most of the people that will be there...they are not people that I hang out with on a regular bases but I do know them...so we all have babies within 6 months of each other...some have older children as well....I don't know what it is that is making me so uptight...but boy I have to get this under control...it is really so nice of the hostess to include me, as I said earlier this is not a group that I hang out with often. It is really super nice of them to ask me to join them today...but I think that just makes the nervousness even worse.....
So clearly I can not cancel....but I am fretting about what I'm going to wear....I always have a tendency to be overdressed...and I want to blend so this is a problem...I'm freaking about what D should wear...cause I don't want her to be the kid with the MOM that now overdresses her...ughghg....and then what I have to take for lunch, a salad a dessert????.......and then the freaking fact that all of these women seem to know what they are doing with this parenting thing and I feel like I have NO clue...and then that just leads to....over analyzing...ladies this sadly is what I do best...I picture everything in my head, have it all laid out...only making my palms sweat more and the butterflies just unbearable....
I'm a big girl though and it is time to face the music....I am ready to go...outfits picked not to much but not to little...big autumn salad made...and big ole smile on my face...wish me luck!!
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Thursday, September 29, 2011
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
time to haul out the big bins...
OK so looks like Little Miss "D" isn't the only one gaining weight in this house....but I can tell you she is the only one getting any applause....ughghhg
Pre little Miss "D", I had lost those last 8 very aggravating pounds...actually due to the stress of 2011 I had got to that number that I had always thought of as my goal...(funny thing is murphy's law I still thought I was to heavy, I know women we will never ever be happy)...anyways I had got there....you know that moment when all the clothes in your closet fit...some are even big...those crazy items you buy and swear as you are tugging at them doing the knee bends in the dressing room that once you lose the last 5 pounds this will be perfect...well most of the time you never lose that 5 and never wear that item....well it was my time to haul out all of those ridiculous purchases....even though they may have pleats in the wrong places and they were wide leg not skinny I was wearing these bad boys........well not anymore ladies.....
In the past 4 months I have ate way to many carbs and have missed some much needed cardio...those 8 pounds plus some are back......and today was the day that it hit me.....reality! I don't know what I have been telling myself the past month, surely I am smart enough to know that the dryer doesn't shrink your jeans especially when you never dry them...for some reason today was the day that I looked at myself in the mirror and actually realized WOW...you need to get back at it girl...and right after that I had to do the climb of shame...I had to pull down the big bin....that's right folks the fat bin...the pants that I vowed would never wrap themselves around this body again....
You know it was always so funny when D and I would be out and about in the first couple months and people would say to me....WOW you just had a baby....haha I would sheepishly giggle and say..."oh yeah, I don't know what the big deal is"...very quickly following up "no no, Delaney is adopted....Oh they would say and carry on....well all my little sarcastic humour I'm afraid has caught up with me...cause those Moms have shed those last few baby pounds and now they can come right up to me and say...."gee hun, those last few baby pounds sure are hard to shed aren't they."
I wouldn't blame these ladies in the least...quite frankly I don't know how any of you lose the baby weight....all I seem to have time for is chips and wine at 10pm these days....ahhh now this might be where the problem lies.....lol
Pre little Miss "D", I had lost those last 8 very aggravating pounds...actually due to the stress of 2011 I had got to that number that I had always thought of as my goal...(funny thing is murphy's law I still thought I was to heavy, I know women we will never ever be happy)...anyways I had got there....you know that moment when all the clothes in your closet fit...some are even big...those crazy items you buy and swear as you are tugging at them doing the knee bends in the dressing room that once you lose the last 5 pounds this will be perfect...well most of the time you never lose that 5 and never wear that item....well it was my time to haul out all of those ridiculous purchases....even though they may have pleats in the wrong places and they were wide leg not skinny I was wearing these bad boys........well not anymore ladies.....
In the past 4 months I have ate way to many carbs and have missed some much needed cardio...those 8 pounds plus some are back......and today was the day that it hit me.....reality! I don't know what I have been telling myself the past month, surely I am smart enough to know that the dryer doesn't shrink your jeans especially when you never dry them...for some reason today was the day that I looked at myself in the mirror and actually realized WOW...you need to get back at it girl...and right after that I had to do the climb of shame...I had to pull down the big bin....that's right folks the fat bin...the pants that I vowed would never wrap themselves around this body again....
You know it was always so funny when D and I would be out and about in the first couple months and people would say to me....WOW you just had a baby....haha I would sheepishly giggle and say..."oh yeah, I don't know what the big deal is"...very quickly following up "no no, Delaney is adopted....Oh they would say and carry on....well all my little sarcastic humour I'm afraid has caught up with me...cause those Moms have shed those last few baby pounds and now they can come right up to me and say...."gee hun, those last few baby pounds sure are hard to shed aren't they."
I wouldn't blame these ladies in the least...quite frankly I don't know how any of you lose the baby weight....all I seem to have time for is chips and wine at 10pm these days....ahhh now this might be where the problem lies.....lol
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