10....

ahhh...so I almost forgot to post a picture today, that's what happens when you forget to charge your battery at night...the camera didn't come with me this morning, so the picture of the day challenge was totally forgotten once I left the house!
I just snapped this quick tonight when I got home....pretty bad I know, I will have something better tomorrow!

m :)

mortgage is on me......

So there is something my husband said to me last night that I just can't seem to get out of my head........I'm not really sure what we were talking about or what brought this on...but T said "oh that reminds me...a couple of months ago...so and so said this..it was so weird it didn't make much sense"........ok...so are you going to tell me, I said??? Sometimes Terry takes a really long time to spit things out.....I imagine it is one of 2 things, he is either trying to process the right delivery of the particular statement, so I won't totally freak out or he really does need that much time to remember whatever it is at that moment...this I still have not figured out!....:)

So he started out really slow....well it was at work and so and so must have said something about your business...I guess, I'm really not sure...but Mr so and so then said well M's Dad would have just given her that building right??? hahahaha...............AHHHHH that shit really pisses me off....

a) this person doesn't know anything about me...I don't even think he knows who my Dad is, he has NEVER seen my shop, and how he ever knew that my Dad owned my building once is beyond me.........or is it??? and that brings me to b)
b) clearly someone idiot at my husbands work that knows more about me and my family...must have told this little tidbit to Mr so and so.......and Mr so and so is a bit slow..love him but honestly he is a little lacking in the brain department.... he wouldn't have thought anything of blurting it right out to T...

So after T told me this story I stayed calm and said well I really have no idea why I would work the crazy hours I do when Daddy is paying my bills for me...man it is so nice not to have a huge mortgage hanging over my head isn't it.....aggghhh Hello people if my Father had given me this building....why would I work as hard as I do.....please...give me a break....I love my job...but I really would love it just as much 10 hours a week instead of 60....

I know that I just have to get over what other people think...I have been dealing with people thinking my Dad pays for everything for me my whole life....I really don't know why it stills drives me so crazy...I think this time it bothered me so much because it was someone that isn't from my small gossipy town, someone that has heard this from another source...I have my thoughts on who that source was and that ticks me off even more...

I think what it boils down to for me, is this.....
I am always surprised when people talk about me, positive or negative...I honestly don't think my life is really that interesting...really people there is exciting shit going on out there in this big ole world.....this girls life is really fairly boring....:)

So for anyone reading this that thinks I don't have to pay my own bills....I am here to clarify that that is not true....my Dad is the King of the "business plan" and the taking the daughter to the banker and dropping her off with business plan in hand and letting her do it on her own....he has helped me with many many things(which I am grateful)...and I know if I couldn't make a payment on this lovely building he would have my back...but unfortunately giving was not something that he thought would teach me any "life lessons" :)
Now for my Dad, if you are reading this........feel free at anytime to take over the payments...really and truly I thank-you for all the "lessons" but I could be done with them now if that was your desire....and we shouldn't let the people down...give em want they want, give the girl the damn building already.....hahaha love ya Dad!!

m:)

number 9...

It was a gorgeous winter day here....even though it apparently was -18 or something the sun was shining and things couldn't be better(although I just remembered that my roof at the salon was leaking, I guess actually things could have been better.......haha)! I took this on my way to work this morning...I thought it was a pretty setting.....

m:)

OUR TRIP FUND......# eight....

the "TRIP JAR"....so a little bit ago I said that Terry and I had decided not to go on a vacation this year...and I also said that we were fine with it and it was no big deal.........well that is still sort of true, but man oh man this is one LONG, SNOWY, FREEZING COLD winter...!!!

We still feel very strongly about not going on principle. It would clearly be "bad form" to go away when you have had to make some pretty major cutbacks at your business.....quite frankly I don't think it would sound too great talking about how you were going to soak up the sun, while sipping a margarita along the beautiful coast line of St Maarten to your employee's who have had to suffer with layoffs..paycuts..etc......hmmpphh...this post is getting really depressing....woops back to the point here...so no, it wouldn't be very good to do that to our employee's!!!

Although ........I do think that a little mini break in the spring is in order, I do still think it is important we get away from it all for a few days..........so I need some ideas...this is what we have come up with so far....Chicago, Napa Valley...New York, New York....Niagara on the Lake....Terry has been talking a lot about this Mallorca place...haha a little island off of the Eastern Spanish Coast...keep dreaming baby!!! lol.......the Mallorca thing is a tentative plan for next year..........hopefully this won't be the case, but if our lives have not changed drastically(meaning if we are not parents yet) by next winter, we are going to take a 2 week adventure to Southern Europe....see I told you I needed to have a plan...some sort of plan B so that is it...a wonderful European adventure....:)

So as you can see we have a few places we would like to visit.....hence the TRIP FUND JAR....starting in the New Year we decided that we would start making our own coffee every morning, instead of buying it everyday.....Terry did the math and it worked out to quite a bit of "cash ol la" each week...I now have the coffee maker down pat so the stuff isn't tasting too bad....haha....it was a bit sketchy there for a the first few weeks......"inconsistent" as Terry would say....(Mr big spender who always got his coffee from Starbucks)!!!
So every day we throw in the amount of money we would have spent on our coffee, into the "TRIP JAR".......and hopefully by the time we are ready to take off we will have a little bit saved up...

I would LOVE to hear some of your ideas for a mini getaway for the spring...we would have 4 or five days...we could fly, take the train, drive anything.....so come on, don't be shy....I need your help here ladies...

M :)

seven....

I made a visit to my favorite store today....lol
I'm sure they thought I was crazy when I pulled out my camera...but I thought it might be a cool shot??

In the end things turn out for the best!

If you have been following my blog since the beginning you will remember that I had an unfortunate situation arise a few months ago. A post I had written was found by someone that I truly didn't ever think would care to read, or at the time obviously would have preferred her not to read. But she did and then confronted me about a few things that I had said. Now I am not going to get into any details about the situation again....I felt very badly that she had searched out and found my blog.....but really could not apologize, because I had written what was in my heart!

It really was an uncomfortable situation for me. I am not a confrontational person, I really feel much better just sliding things under the rug and forgetting about them. I really struggled with this because I felt so badly that I had hurt someones feelings, but couldn't take anything back. So we had to go from there!

I am so glad that the two of us took the high road, and instead of holding grudges and being angry with each other we decided to try to communicate with each other better, forget about the things that had been said and done....and really just get to know one another. Something that in our few year relationship we hadn't been able to do for some reason. Clearly the reason all the confusion happened in the first place!

It is amazing how misconceptions and misunderstandings can turn into such HUGE things in people's(especially women's) lives....imaginations take over and then you are thinking things in your head that are absolutely not true. You have yourself convinced that crazy, mean, terrible things are going on!

Now that her and I have allowed ourselves to get to know each other better we realize, that is exactly what had happened over the years.

I am grateful that I have been given a second chance to get to know this person.....I truly enjoy her company and consider her a good friend and confident. We had coffee today and the time we spent together really confirmed it for me again.

Another life lesson I guess.......something I think women have such a hard time with...actually getting to know one another. Instead we too often take that first impression(which lets be honest here is really never good), or we listen to the opinions of others! I hope that because of this experience I have had, the chance to have another great girlfriend..... I will remember this lesson from now on!

m:)

numero #6...

Ahh...I guess with all the Superbowl excitement yesterday I forgot to post a picture....:)

We had some friends over on Sat night and we ended up playing this new game..."Things" so fun!! I of course was the "biggest loser" but oh well...it was a great time!
Good times with good friends!!!

m:)

a dream.....

Have you ever awoken with this really nagging feeling that something really big just happened???? You can't really pinpoint what it was but something was changed, you felt differently about things?

Well Sat. morning I woke up and had that weird feeling inside of me....it was early as it always is on Sat morning, I went down for a run and just couldn't figure out what was going on....so I tried to forgot it and started running my little legs off to the beat of my music....(the only thing that gets me through this new interval training, sprint thing that I am trying).........I can hardly believe I have time to think let alone breath while I am doing it!! :) So I finished up my run and was about to jump in the shower and that is when it hit me........my dream, the dream I had had that night........

Now I have no idea what dreams mean, I wish I did in this instance because it was a good one...while I was having it that is....but as I stood there ready to get into the shower my head was filled with the images of this dream and I had to take a seat to get myself together...thankfully it wasn't a complete meltdown, I just needed some time to remember it and contemplate it.......I haven't told anyone about this dream, I kind of feel crazy even writing about it. I have deleted this post many times already this morning. But I really want this whole journey to be here so in years to come I can look back and see all the emotion.

So back to my dream, which I am sure you have already figured out involves a baby....a baby boy actually...I didn't dream about the adoption or the process of getting the baby....it was after all of that I guess..it was just us a family, a family of 3.....our parents and families and friends were around...it was just so...well perfect...
I don't let myself visualize this in "real life" I guess a defense mechanism just in case it never happens....this was the first time I had seen it.....in my dream, and for some reason I can still see it as clear as if it was happening right now.......

While I was sitting on the edge of the tub the dream started coming back to me....I found it remarkable, I wasn't upset...I didn't feel like crying or screaming or being angry...a sense of calm came over me....I continued to think about it as I was getting ready for work...remembering some of the little details...and then I placed in the back of my mind and continued on with my day. I knew I would revisit it again when I had time to really give it the "Moore Mull"!! :)
So that is what I have been doing today.......as I said I wasn't really sure about posting anything about this for fear that people will think I am crazy, thinking that we are now going to get the "call" just because I had a dream about a baby.....believe me I am WAY to logical to think like that....

So after thinking about it today again and giving it more thought, I am really glad that I was able to remember this dream.....it was pleasant and special and has really made me feel.......well calm.......peaceful.....I can't explain it. But whatever it is I am thankful!

m:)