Monday, February 23, 2009

Wish it...Dream it...DO IT!!!!

My weekend has been filled with a lot of soul searching.....I have been in a funk, which is just not like me.....I have stayed stagnant, become complacent ...waiting....waiting....WAITING...man I am starting to just hate that word....

I do not wait around.........I take action....all my life I have been the type of person to move on...visualize a goal and do it.....whether it is my job, my personal life..anything. Now in saying that I have made some pretty hefty mistakes...like that little thing I like to call a divorce...yeah that plan of action was maybe not the best....but that is the thing you can always fix things...

I always have been a person with dreams........now when I say dreams I might surprise some of you...my dreams really are not that grand.......I don't dream about having a million dollar home or a really crazy fancy car.......I have dreams about making a difference, leaving a legacy...I really want to make a difference in peoples lives.....so how will I go about doing this.....I have a quote on a wall in my salon....something my Dad would always say in his own way...wish it...dream it...DO IT...I started to think about it this weekend...why have I not been doing that??? That is what we do....and I had stopped.....crazy....???

I am blessed to be in the business that I am......I get to touch peoples lives everyday....my art, I love.....and have been fairly successful to this point but this is not enough for me...I must keep going......in the past year I have thought that I would wait...put my dreams, my "plan" on hold for a bit until I know what is going to happen in our life......well I have finally realized that that is just not going to work for me! I don't think waiting is what I should be doing........it is just not healthy for the type of person I am. Holding out is making me sad and depressed and anxious which in turn makes me not effective at my job, with my clients and my staff....it ends up being a bad situation all around!!!

So I am moving on....the next part of my dream plan is in effect........I have many goals set for myself and my business and our life....I am so blessed that my husband is on board always to support me and of course my family always supports us too. Which I must say is why I feel confident enough to move ahead with these dreams..........having all of their support has always been my last push to move ahead.....

The first part of my plan is going to take a bit of education on my part, so in April "T" and I will be heading away to take a Salon Business Management course.........as I have said before my passion is my art....I am a hairstylist, I love to work with my hands and my eyes and my heart....the management part of my business is very challenging for me.....and I have not been doing it very well.....so I need to get better at it...so that is what I will do......because for the rest of my plan to happen I need to be very effective at that part of the "job"! I want to feed off of others that have already taken the road I am about to take!!!

I feel a new spring in my step....a renewed passion again.........of course I don't want anyone to get the wrong idea here.....this adoption is still the most important thing to both "T" and I...but the reality of this situation is, it may not happen for months and months....and quite honestly if I stay the way I am for that length of time no BM would ever pick us....because I would be officially spending time in the "loony bin"....I just can't do this anymore....it is consuming me.....I don't like this person I have become, so I have to make a change.....working towards our dreams.......and hopefully right in the middle of all that work....the most exciting dream will happen and it won't even feel like we have been waiting at all!!!! :)

so in the words of my Dad....WISH IT....DREAM IT.....DO IT!!!
m :)

15 comments:

Rebekah said...

I couldn't agree with you more...on all accounts. We're the same person and I think you might have stolen this straight from my journal :). I wrote a very similar blog to this at the end of December. I just couldn't be consumed anymore! Little did I know just how close I was to FANTASTIC news! :)

Hang in there. Live life large while you wait!

Dionne said...

That's great that you have your mojo back! I am glad that you are excited and motivated to follow your dreams. Go for it!

Wade and Ericka said...

Wow - how inspiring...

I hope all your dreams come true and I do believe that in those moments where we choose to power forward, the prize is just around the corner!

Thanks for visiting my blog!

Soralis said...

Good luck. I hope your wait is short!

Love the card!

ICLW

Deathstar said...

“Until one is committed, there is hesitancy, the chance to draw back. Concerning all acts of initiative (and creation), there is one elementary truth, the ignorance of which kills countless ideas and splendid plans: that the moment one definitely commits oneself, then Providence moves too. All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred. A whole stream of events issues from the decision, raising in one's favor all manner of unforeseen incidents and meetings and material assistance, which no man could have dreamed would have come his way. Whatever you can do, or dream you can do, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it. Begin it now.” - William Murray

Thanks for visiting me for ICLW. Hope the above quote inspires you as much as it inspires me.

sassy said...

Nice words. It's my first time here (via ICLW), & I'm glad to meetcha !

bunny said...

I am glad you are feeling so energized and positive. One morning a few months ago I wrote "you are not waiting, you are living your life" on a sticky note and put it on the wall where I could see the reminder when I needed it. It is so true that waiting can be so all consuming and draining. I hope all your energy and motivation brings you great happiness!

Andrea said...

Good for you and your motivation! I think that will be great to help take your mind off the adoption and make the time until it happens go lots faster! Good luck!

ICLW

Anonymous said...

The 'Dad' says: Glad you're out of the funky shit..."you just can't wait around for stuff to happen...you just have to get on with it."
The 'Mom' says: "Ditto!" Love you!!!

Mama Bear said...

The wait can be sooooo hard! I love the scripture you have on the sidebar!

Roxane said...

Hey SITSah!
I came across your blog while I was looking through roll call. Just wanted to say best of luck to you!
Heck, you even got me a bit more motivated :)

Cara said...

I just love ICLW! I could written that post. In fact, I think I did - in my own self-reflective way in the last week, reminding myself, just like you did - that taking action always makes a difference.

I just cannot believe how similarly we see with world and our role in it.

Adding you to my blogroll and I'LL BE BACK!

littleangelkisses said...

I love it! I need to remember that more often! Good luck in your endevors girl!

ICLW

Jamie D said...

This post is the best yet... You have no idea how motivating it was for me...

keep it up cous... each time I think that you have outdone yourself in ur wisdom you surpass yourself!

The Me/ The Wife/ The Mom said...

Michelle! I am giving you a standing ovation! The magic is always in the journey! I'm proud of you!

In my own life, it has only been when I keep moving and working on the things that mean something to me that something marvelous happens...adding to the joy. I wish that for you!